What Is Love

Love never dies or gets forgotten
If it does, then it wasn’t really love
But then why does it hurt so much
Maybe I just love the pain and suffering
So I know I’m alive deep inside
Aware of what love can be
Everything so opposite of me

How Long Will I Love You

Six more months
Until you’re home again
Except your home
Isn’t mine anymore
I wonder if you’re still
The very same man
Who I fell in love with before
Maybe we’re just not meant to be
Just wasting time
Playing stupid games
Maybe I should wait and see
But how long should I still wait

Let Me

I don’t quite understand
Why I’m feeling the way I am
How I have come this far
So black and blue
Yet so much in love
With a man who could never be mine
Because his heart lies elsewhere
Somewhere but here with me
Even the best memories we’d have
Won’t make him stay
It’ll only make him realize
His plans shouldn’t include me
Yet I stay and I pray
That one day he will see
That he can fully open up to me
That I could be his future
If he’d just let me


With the taste of tequila shots
Still lingering in the back of our throats
You were worried
Your friends might see us
But that didn’t stop you
From kissing me
We were tucked away behind the stage
Behind that mediocre DJ of the night
What a romantic place you picked out
To confess your love to me
While you still had your wedding band
Yet I kissed you back
Gave you my all
I was fragile but I didn’t know it back then
You used me but I let it happen
The truth is
I would relive it again

November Thoughts

It was November
Yes, I still remember
We were at that bar
Where no one sober
Likes to go to
But always seems to
End up there anyway
With the taste of tequila shots
Still lingering around
In the back of our throats
We fell in love for a brief moment
What felt like a lifetime

Happy Ending

I still look for you
In crowded places
Hoping to see you
Among the strange faces
Hoping I’d turn around
Just to find you
Staring back at me
But that can only happen in movies
With unrealistic standards
Of love and happy endings

Under the Sheets

Can we lay here in your bed
For a little while longer
I think it may be the last time
We will be like this together
I know what has been on your mind
Each time you look into my eyes
You could never say those words
So maybe I should say them now
But without actually saying them
I am hoping these actions
Will speak for themselves


Remember that time
I sat on your lap
While you whispered
Let’s not see other people
I knew deep down inside
It was all a lie
Something I haven’t heard
In quite a while
So I let myself fall for it
While you let me kiss your lips
Brush your beautiful hair
Hold you tightly against me
I could hear your heart
It was beating just for me
But I didn’t realize then
That I was just projecting
My fairytale ending onto you


My dearest John,
How’s the new job treating you
I heard you moved to a new country
Must be hard starting over alone
It’s been over 6 months now since we last spoke
Maybe even more, but who’s counting
I guess it’s just me who is
Don’t worry, I still remember you
Not sure if I ever cross your mind
I guess I don’t, but that’s okay
I have always been sentimental that way
A small girl with a heavy heart
Always overanalyzing things that never made any sense
But that seemed to intrigue you about me
While I was fascinated by your wisdom and awkward jokes
Your love for football and beer
Together with your inability to keep your word
Your actions were all I saw
But even those meant nothing at all
While these memories I have of you
They still linger around
So I guess you did mean something
Not a lot, but enough to bring me back
To that rainy Saturday evening when we first met