Old Habits Die Hard (Revisited)

“I’ll be dying soon”
You told me with your tired eyes
“…And you’re gonna be just fine”
You assured me with your trembling voice
And I just don’t know what to do
If I knew, you wouldn’t be here
Chained to this hospital bed
It’s sad that no one comes to see you
Not even me, I admit
At least not anymore
Cause you’ve been sick for so long
It’s becoming a habit now
And we all know old habits die hard
But they die, eventually
We’ve been waiting and waiting
I can only imagine
What you’re going through
But I don’t want to
I guess I’m selfish that way
Thinking as long as it’s not me
But one day
Tables might turn
It might be me chained to this bed
Day in, day out
Year in, year out
It’s going to become a habit
And you know what they say
About old habits dying hard
They die… eventually
Just like you did
Yesterday

 

Do You Still Love Me

We can dance the night away too easily
When the world around us is falling apart
Brick by brick, heart by heart
Is it you or is it just me
Like it’s always been?

You kiss me, I kiss you back
But love is rarely that black and white
But what do I know, right
There are questions I’m afraid to ask
Do you still love me?

 

This Love

You told me I was beautiful
As you kissed my lips and took me to your bed
We made love like we always do
But somehow it still didn’t make me love you

I forgot how it was to feel loved
To have someone in my life who wanted me
Who would have me just the way I am
But who am I? I ask myself over and over again

All these years of pain and regrets
Made me oh so cold inside
I feel nothing now
Though I want to, but I just don’t know how

He tries and tries
While I play the part
He falls deeply in love with me
Yet I’m not sure what to feel

Is this love
Or simply lust
Or just a favour of some sort
Cause he too been lonely for so long

Or maybe it’s real
He’s a good guy, the best I might ever meet
Time to move on and be loved
Like I deserve to be loved

 

As We Used To Be

A few summers ago
We were both so young
So naive but oh so in love
They kept telling us
This kind of puppy love
Won’t last long
But we kept telling them off
Not knowing they were right
How we wished they were wrong
Now a few years later
It’s weird seeing you again
How we know so much about each other
Yet I don’t know you anymore
But that’s okay
Cause in the past you’ll stay
As perfect as we used to be

 

Home

Old man sitting at the window
Of his old two bedroom home
He’s waiting for his wife
But he forgot she died
Five long years ago
But he just doesn’t know
He just can’t remember much
Now all that remains is his love
An empty bed
And a tumor in his head
He just stares outside every day
Wasting his life away
But maybe someday soon
His beloved June
Will return home again
Holding hands
In heaven they’ll roam
Happily ever after
She’s finally home

 

Hush, Little Baby

Hush, little baby, don’t say a word
You’re still the prettiest in the world
I know it’s too late to buy you a mockingbird

But hush now baby don’t you cry
Mama’s gonna give you wings and let you fly
Right up there, high in the clear blue sky

If you’re afraid to fly so high and fall right back down
I’ll catch you with my loving arms, but you should go now
Before relieve gets replaced by severe doubts

So hush, little baby, don’t say a word
Maybe grandpa will give you that mockingbird
After all he’s been waiting for you, my sweet little girl

 

Sweet Child of Mine

Sweet child of mine
I’ve run out of lullabies
So I guess it’s time to say goodbye

It’s now or never
But never seems like forever
And I can’t seem to choose what’s better

Life and death
Here in this bed
Nothing’s been said

As a mother I chose what’s best
Cause death doesn’t seem so bad
Why can’t he understand that

Cause forever would only last one more month
I don’t understand why he’d let him suffer that way
Our poor little son

 

Thirsty

Dear little boy
Only five years old
He died alone
While his mother should’ve died
Now the world cries
He did something bad
To annoy his bitter mom
His stepfather agreed
He should be an example to the rest
So he got punished
Now he cries and cries
Till there was nothing left to cry
He called his grandmother
But she didn’t even bother
His brother wanted to help
But in that household
It’s every kid for himself
So he shivered
He cried
He was scared
He was cold
He was hungry
But most of all
He was thirsty
For love
For compassion
For the police to come
For a safe home
For his siblings to live in
But most of all
He was simply just thirsty
So he lied down to close his eyes for a minute
To catch a break from his cruel life
Only to close his eyes forever
Now the world finally knows
But it’s too damn late
So let him be that example
Keep your children safe!

 

You said I was …

You said I was beautiful
The most prettiest in the room
The most amazing girl you have ever been with
Beautiful words do sound appealing
To a beautful young mind like mine
You took me to dinner
You bought me flowers
You showered me with attention
Everything a girl could ever want
Everything a girl truly deserves 
I bet you say that to everyone
I thought
But then again
I might be the special one
But then I see the way
That special way
You treat all the others
I realized… 
You were never going to love me
Like I was willing to love you

 

What About Me?

You must be married by now
With a child on the way
You forgot about me
You forgot about us
You forgot about our love
Nevermind the hurt
Nevermind the lies
Nevermind the other guy
We’ve made mistakes
But somewhere along the way
We both took the blame
We never looked back
I never wanted to end it that way
You met someone else
And I can only blame myself
But what about me?