Dear Boy From the Past

Dear guy from the past
I wish you all the best
I wish you all the things we never had
The things I wish we could have had

We started with a flirtatious smile
We ended with an awkward goodbye
Now I look at you
Wondering how you do

But you never look back
You never talk back
I walked pass you the other day
You just never looked my way

Dear boy from the past
Do you ever look back
Wondering how I am
Asking how I am

We started way before we did
Way before that passionate kiss
Way before I knew your name
We started when our eyes met that sunny day

Dear blur from the past
I almost forgot what we had
But we never had anything at all
With my back against the wall

I let things slide
Like you had let me slide
I’ll have my memories
While you’ll have the rest of me

 

Thank You

Thank you for loving me
When no one else would
Not even me

Thank you for being there
When time got rough
When no one seemed to care

Thank you for seeing the good in me
Who knew I had it in me
I suppose you’ve always believed in me

Thank you for making me laugh
When all I wanted was to lock myself up
Feeling miserable and sad

Thank you for listening to me
Ranting away like a crazy person
Reacting so emotionally

Thank you for being my punching bag
I know my nails can do a lot of harm
I didn’t mean to hurt you like that

Thank you for not wanting me to change
This is who I am and always will be
No need for me to be ashamed

Thank you for loving me
So tenderly
Accepting me
Being with me
Thank you for being you

 

Don’t Think Of Me

Don’t think of me
When she is out
Spending all your money
While you’re out of town

Don’t think of me
When she tells you
She doesn’t want to start a family
While you’re ready to

Don’t think of me
When she confesses to you
That she’s been seeing her ex regularly
But still wants to keep seeing you

Don’t think of me
When dinner isn’t served
When the house hasn’t been cleaned
While she’s constantly out with the girls

Don’t think of me
Cause you’ve had your chance
You’ve had your way with me
You will never see me again

 

Seven Years

Seven years it took me to forget you
But you just had to come back
You just had to ruin my life didn’t you
But I’m sorry we can’t go back

Seven years it took me
To realize we could’ve been together
If only I hadn’t been so blind to see
Instead now we’re both avoiding each other

Seven long years have passed
To finally see your beautiful face
I wish I could’ve gone back
Back to those innocent days

Seven years later fate’s still playing games
History is repeating itself
Now you’re about to get engaged
I can only blame myself

Seven years ago I could’ve loved you
But I just couldn’t say the words
But he seemed to
That changed my world

Seven long years I’ve been living with regrets
I’m sure things are now for the best
You’ve been giving him a second chance
I can live with that

Seven years later I can finally let you go
Because I’ve found comfort in the fact that we’ll be together in our next lifetime
I’ll promise you I will make you mine by letting you know with the right words
That I love you and that I only want you in my life

I’ll wait for you
For seven years
For seven lives
I love you

 

Family

I used to have a sister
My dearest darling sister
She knew it all, she gave me advice
Not to mention honey covered lies
But that’s okay, because I was blinded by love
Addicted to the sisterly love
I never realized you were controlling me
Telling me and using me
I thought you were sincere
I thought you’d always be here
I guess everyone else was right
I can forgive all, but just not that lie
You convinced me they were out to get you
They were all trying to hurt you
I have asked you over and over again
About what’s going on with that friend
A friend I wasn’t supposed to talk to
A friend you said was hurting you
That I should stay away from him
That I shouldn’t be friends with him
So I stayed away even though he didn’t seem so bad
But if he’s making you sad
I guess he must be a bad guy
But there went another lie
He came clean on a rainy October day
He told me what you didn’t want him to say
I lost all respect for you
I’ve lost many friends because of you
Because you made me choose sides
Made me believe in your lies
I know I was the one who said
Family are the ones you choose, but I’m taking it back
A true sister won’t lie
She won’t cheat and cry
Just to get her way
Just to get me to stay
For three long years
I have deeply cared
Because that’s what family does
And family I was
But not anymore
Not anymore

 

The Break Up

You tell me you don’t know who you are
You tell me you’re so lost without me
Just take a deep breath and listen to your heart
Pass the hurt and all these tears, you will let go of me

I’m sorry, but I’m not picking up the phone
I will only hurt you even more, and I don’t mean to
So with my hidden tears and all my secret emotions, I’ll leave you alone
One day you will thank me for letting you be loved by someone who truly deserves you

I don’t mean to hurt you, because this thing we thought we had ain’t right
It’s just that we both know we’re not meant to be
So I’ll be the bad guy here, and I’ll end this fight
Live your life and just forget about me

You can think ill of me, if that helps you moving on
You can hate me too, if that helps anything at all
Hope you’ll drift away to someone you do belong
Someone who will be there to catch you when you fall

So don’t come around looking for me, demanding to see me
Cause I don’t want you to linger in our past
I don’t want you to fall in love all over again with me
Nothing you can do or say can save what we had

 

Little Girl

Lullabies
Sweet goodbyes
Time to let things die
Let it be, let me be

Little girl
Sweetest words
Nothing else matters
Mom and dad, love you too

Why is it so hard to let you go
I’m sorry you’re gone
Under this stone, laying cold
I’m sorry I was wrong

Lullabies
Please don’t die
Your eyes all shut now
So I cry, while you die

Little girl,
Saddest words
You’re all that matters
You and I, we’re a team
Why is it so hard to let you go

I’m sorry you’re gone
All alone now, laying cold
I’m sorry I was wrong
So bye bye little child

Close your eyes
Sleep tight
No more lullabies
Saddest goodbye
My little girl…

 

Who

You and me
Total silence
Calm as the sea
Going on for months
Ending this now
But what to do
Habbit screaming loud
In the form of you
You’re so pretty
I’m so stupid
Just end it for me
Stupid Cupid
I’m just lost
And I hate you
No matter the cost
I deny my truth
Our love bled to death
Dragging it’s corpse around
No longer in my bed
But how
And why
When
But most of all
Who

 

Just Me

You tell me you like me
In all the right ways
In all the right spots
But still I cannot shake off
What happened yesterday
What you were telling me

You tell me you love me
In all the right ways
At all the right times
But there goes another lie
Another side to your gentle face
No lie you couldn’t have sold me

You tell me you want me
In ever single way
On every single night
But no, this ain’t right
Not after what happened yesterday
I remember what she was telling me

She knew about you and me
At all the wrong times
At all the wrong places
Just passionate embraces
All the while
Knowing her knowing about me

You were my right kinda wrong
But now,
Wrong doesn’t feel so right
Ending it with our last goodbye
This fire’s out
No more right and wrong

Just me.

 

Walking Away

I walk out into the crowded street
Thinking maybe you’ll bump into me
It’s weird how I sometimes get to be
It’s all because of you, I believe

As I follow the crowd
Not knowing where to go now
I somehow end up at your house
Funny how some things turn out

I try to turn around and walk away
But then I see her face
And yours.. and it is desperately telling me to stay away
So I’m walking away

Out of my misery
Out of our memories
Out of this scenery
Out of your hypocrisy