Marry Me (part 1)

You ask me if there is a God
Someone to take you out of this shit hole
But who am I to say if He’s a fraud
Cause no one really knows

You lie awake each and every night
Praying to anyone who’s willing to hear you
You’re starting to wonder if you should just die
For death may be the only way out for you

Then you meet this nice young fellow
Who’s willing to love you for a lifetime
While deep down inside you just want to go
Go right back to the father of your child

‘Marry me’, he asks unromantically
It’s his first time, you can tell
From the outside looking in, it’s rather sweet
But we all know, it’ll be a marriage from hell

 

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are,
Like a diamond in the sky
Brightening up the lonely night
I wish I could be there with you
But you don’t have a clue, do you

Tears, they fall from my eyes
Somehow it feels different this time
I’m right here, but you’re not
You had to go, but I did not
It just wasn’t my time or place
But you had to be stubborn this way

Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder where you are
Now that the bright lit sun is gone
Now that there is nothing to wish upon
What have you really become
After all that I have done

Now 12 months later we celebrate
Not your departure, but your voyage
And I’m thankful no one knows
Why you really had to go
So soon, so sudden, so mysteriously
Our secret is safe with me

Twinkle twinkle little star
Travel light, travel far
Just let things be
Between you and me

 

Mary Had a Little Lamb

Mary had a little lamb
Or at least
That’s the word on the street
It would’ve been sweet
If it hadn’t been for you
Kids her age would laugh at her
Cause she wasn’t like them
But no one really knew her
No one really cared
No one really had a chance
How could they, cause she disappeared
One day, out of the blue
There was you
Now kids laugh no more
Word on the street
Mary had a little lamb
Buried six feet under the playground sand

 

Happy Ever After part 2

Please don’t get me wrong
I’m happy that you’re happy
You get to gloat about it
Be my guest
It’s just that
I never got the invite
Had to hear it through the grapevine
What have I done?
Do you really hate me?
Envy me?
Distrust me?
Cause he hit on me
A lifetime ago?
I’ve let it go
And so did he
Trust me
Oh wait
You don’t
Trust him them
But I guess you don’t either
Maybe you’re right
Cause he still calls me at night
To say goodnight
Instead of you
Now, where’s your happy ever after?

 

One Bad Summer

I walked pass your place
Just the other day
You were there, as usual
Staring at the world
So angrily
You never noticed me
But I noticed you alright
I tried to help
But you seemed so consumed
With yourself
I tried to talk to you
Get to know you
While no one ever took the time
I was there for you
You were just… there
What could I have been thinking
I guess I needed a challenge
Not realizing I could never change a man
Who can’t be tamed
I had no choice but to walk away
But then you had to go and change your mind
Just like that I was hooked
You got me fooled real good
That’s how one bad summer
Turned into five long years
Years of my youth wasted
But let’s face it
We were never meant to be

 

Happy end

Have you met my lovely daughter yet
She’s so beautiful and gracious
Walking down the aisle in her white dress
It’s her wedding day

I can tell she is so happy
It’s the happiest day of her life
No matter how old she’ll be
She’ll always be my little girl

We were never that close, though
She left home quite young
And I was just a low life drunk
I never cared for anyone but me

One day she found me hospitalized
Doctors told me I would die
She held my hand and told me she forgave me
I didn’t want to leave her again, but that’s life

Now from up above I watch her get married
To man she loves, but doesn’t love her back
What am I to do but to watch these lies as they roll by
One by one.. while she’s in denial..

I guess I should’ve loved her more
I should’ve been around more
To protect her from this man
To make sure she’ll get her happy end…

 

The Shape of Things

I will
Give it up
I’ll give it all up
Just to get you back
But things aren’t easy as that
Because you can’t bring back the dead
You can’t wish back what you used to have
Now just
Turn it back
Turn back the time
Now take back all the lies
Take it all back including the fights
Memories of us should not be tainted
They should not be covered with regrets
Please
Talk to me
Reach out to me
We’re not done yet
I can still feel your hand
Upon my shoulder, upon my head
Telling me what a good girl I have been
Tell me
Tell me now
Tell me everything
Tell me you’re proud of me
Tell me that you have forgiven me
Tell me that I will be fine without you
Just tell me that everything will be just fine

 

Family

I used to have a sister
My dearest darling sister
She knew it all, she gave me advice
Not to mention honey covered lies
But that’s okay, because I was blinded by love
Addicted to the sisterly love
I never realized you were controlling me
Telling me and using me
I thought you were sincere
I thought you’d always be here
I guess everyone else was right
I can forgive all, but just not that lie
You convinced me they were out to get you
They were all trying to hurt you
I have asked you over and over again
About what’s going on with that friend
A friend I wasn’t supposed to talk to
A friend you said was hurting you
That I should stay away from him
That I shouldn’t be friends with him
So I stayed away even though he didn’t seem so bad
But if he’s making you sad
I guess he must be a bad guy
But there went another lie
He came clean on a rainy October day
He told me what you didn’t want him to say
I lost all respect for you
I’ve lost many friends because of you
Because you made me choose sides
Made me believe in your lies
I know I was the one who said
Family are the ones you choose, but I’m taking it back
A true sister won’t lie
She won’t cheat and cry
Just to get her way
Just to get me to stay
For three long years
I have deeply cared
Because that’s what family does
And family I was
But not anymore
Not anymore