Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are,
Like a diamond in the sky
Brightening up the lonely night
I wish I could be there with you
But you don’t have a clue, do you

Tears, they fall from my eyes
Somehow it feels different this time
I’m right here, but you’re not
You had to go, but I did not
It just wasn’t my time or place
But you had to be stubborn this way

Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder where you are
Now that the bright lit sun is gone
Now that there is nothing to wish upon
What have you really become
After all that I have done

Now 12 months later we celebrate
Not your departure, but your voyage
And I’m thankful no one knows
Why you really had to go
So soon, so sudden, so mysteriously
Our secret is safe with me

Twinkle twinkle little star
Travel light, travel far
Just let things be
Between you and me

 

Happy Ever After part 2

Please don’t get me wrong
I’m happy that you’re happy
You get to gloat about it
Be my guest
It’s just that
I never got the invite
Had to hear it through the grapevine
What have I done?
Do you really hate me?
Envy me?
Distrust me?
Cause he hit on me
A lifetime ago?
I’ve let it go
And so did he
Trust me
Oh wait
You don’t
Trust him them
But I guess you don’t either
Maybe you’re right
Cause he still calls me at night
To say goodnight
Instead of you
Now, where’s your happy ever after?

 

Lonesome Girl

It was a cold October night
It was late and I fell asleep
While you fell in love with me
I was just a lonesome girl
Fighting hard against the cruel world
Who met this lonely boy
Who helped her avoid
All the hardships of her daily life
He tried his best
But I didn’t know, I didn’t care
I just needed a shoulder to cry on
Guess I shouldn’t have done that
Now we both cannot go back
Back to where we were
Back to the good old days
When everything was so simple
When everything was still okay
Now you say you love me
But I know you don’t
You love the idea of me
Damsel in distress
Someone to save
Someone to hold on to
But I don’t need to be saved
At least not by you anyway

 

Laura

We were young and had it all
We had years of life and love ahead of us
Most of all we had each other

But it’s like they say
All good things come to an end
But damn, how we ended things

I hated you for a while
Then I blamed myself
Then I blamed the world

But never you
Never ever you
I don’t know why

Years passed us by
We never talked
You never called

I guess you’ve got yourself a family
Vanilla skies and white picket fences
Somehow I just don’t get it

I wonder what you tell your kids
How you teach them about moralities
If you would ever talk about me

Like you did in school
I know we were young then
But you were such a child then

So I let the years pass us by
We never talked
I never called

 

Thank You

Thank you for loving me
When no one else would
Not even me

Thank you for being there
When time got rough
When no one seemed to care

Thank you for seeing the good in me
Who knew I had it in me
I suppose you’ve always believed in me

Thank you for making me laugh
When all I wanted was to lock myself up
Feeling miserable and sad

Thank you for listening to me
Ranting away like a crazy person
Reacting so emotionally

Thank you for being my punching bag
I know my nails can do a lot of harm
I didn’t mean to hurt you like that

Thank you for not wanting me to change
This is who I am and always will be
No need for me to be ashamed

Thank you for loving me
So tenderly
Accepting me
Being with me
Thank you for being you

 

Family

I used to have a sister
My dearest darling sister
She knew it all, she gave me advice
Not to mention honey covered lies
But that’s okay, because I was blinded by love
Addicted to the sisterly love
I never realized you were controlling me
Telling me and using me
I thought you were sincere
I thought you’d always be here
I guess everyone else was right
I can forgive all, but just not that lie
You convinced me they were out to get you
They were all trying to hurt you
I have asked you over and over again
About what’s going on with that friend
A friend I wasn’t supposed to talk to
A friend you said was hurting you
That I should stay away from him
That I shouldn’t be friends with him
So I stayed away even though he didn’t seem so bad
But if he’s making you sad
I guess he must be a bad guy
But there went another lie
He came clean on a rainy October day
He told me what you didn’t want him to say
I lost all respect for you
I’ve lost many friends because of you
Because you made me choose sides
Made me believe in your lies
I know I was the one who said
Family are the ones you choose, but I’m taking it back
A true sister won’t lie
She won’t cheat and cry
Just to get her way
Just to get me to stay
For three long years
I have deeply cared
Because that’s what family does
And family I was
But not anymore
Not anymore

 

The Mistress In Me

I’m standing here at this crossroad
I’m not sure where to go
I used to just call you
And you’d answer your phone
You’d talk to me
You’d listen to me
Then I’d laugh at my insecurities
Then we’d both laugh some more about men
Handsome men and their stupidities
How we’d take love so seriously
It all changed when you betrayed me
All for one man, a boy with no empathy
A child perfect for you it seems
A dishonest relationship it appears to be
You had to lie and cheat
So that he wouldn’t notice me
That he’d only have eyes for you
That he’d only love you
And never not me
Do you really think that ill of me
I guess you do because of jealousy
Not to mention your own misery
I’ve tried hard to ignore it
I’ve done my best to forget it
But now you’ve unleased this fire
It’s a game I like to play at times
The mistress in me is calling me
And so is your lovely man

 

I Can Pretend

I can pretend everything is fine
That yesterday was just a dream of mine
I can pretend your heart ain’t mine
Simply because you took it back, just like that

I can pretend we never happened
All your deceiving and backstabbing
I can pretend I don’t care
Simply because you were never there

I can pretend I don’t know you
Because I never really did
I can pretend I have moved on already
Simply because I should be

 

This is it

Sitting by the phone
Hoping, wishing, dreaming
You’d be erased from my memory
Or at least from my directory
This can’t be good
Cause you’re bad for me
Now praying, thinking, saying
This will be the last day
I get to be so worked up over you
And your accusations
Your childishness
My foolishness
Me feeling guilty
For something you have done
Something I could never do
Guess the blame is really on me
For letting this happen
So…
This is it then

 

Lies

Lie to me
Do it so convincingly
Smother me
Your manipulating capacity
Is killing me
Leave me alone please
But wait for me
Addicted to this scenery
Of you and me
Lies, all lies standing in between
Will I ever be freed
From this fantasy