I Belong To You

You put your coat on
Expected me to leave with you
Hand in hand like an army
But how can I disappoint my family
I can’t live without them
I don’t wanna choose
My heart belongs to you
But the rest belongs to them
Not much we can do
So I undecidedly made a choice
And went against my inner voice
I could hardly move
Let alone breathe
Nor look at you
One day perhaps you’ll understand
Why I had to let go your loving hands
Still my heart you get to hold
Just not me

 

Hero

I was a hero
I was your hero
No one told me though
Of my tainted soul

I was everybody’s hero
But who was mine, nobody seemed to know
Nobody could warn me though
That I would die alone

People told me I should be so happy
I had my two children, my wife, my family
I knew I had it all and yet I had nothing
Just a deep longing for that special something

I thought maybe I could be my own hero
Instead I knew my destiny was to go
To leave this life, my home
My destiny was to die alone

And alone I was with my thoughts
Praying, begging my own God
To give me back peace
To bring me back a piece of me

I’m sorry I couldn’t be anyone’s hero
I am most sorry that I couldn’t be your hero
Deep down you knew I had to go out on my own
I had to leave this place we call our home

Let me be my own hero
Let me prove I can be a hero
Maybe one day I can be a hero
Your hero

 

Maybe Tomorrow

No one said growing up would be easy
No one said life would be all fun and games
Someone shoulda told you your parents love you unconditionally
That no matter what they say or do, they mean no harm
Yet you fight them like your worst enemies
So only fourteen years old with nowhere to go
You go straight to the loving arms
Of a twenty-one year old
Cause he can do you no harm
Or that’s what you thought
Now you can’t leave him anymore
Cause you think he can’t live without you
But he certainly can, cause he had threatened to kill you
So you do what he wants you to
Praying your parents will find you
Save you from the mess you’ve made
Take you away from the mess you’re in
Maybe tomorrow you’ll be home, just not today
Cause you secretly hope he’ll change
You hope he’ll be the man you met
A long long time ago

 

The Shape of Things

I will
Give it up
I’ll give it all up
Just to get you back
But things aren’t easy as that
Because you can’t bring back the dead
You can’t wish back what you used to have
Now just
Turn it back
Turn back the time
Now take back all the lies
Take it all back including the fights
Memories of us should not be tainted
They should not be covered with regrets
Please
Talk to me
Reach out to me
We’re not done yet
I can still feel your hand
Upon my shoulder, upon my head
Telling me what a good girl I have been
Tell me
Tell me now
Tell me everything
Tell me you’re proud of me
Tell me that you have forgiven me
Tell me that I will be fine without you
Just tell me that everything will be just fine

 

Family

I used to have a sister
My dearest darling sister
She knew it all, she gave me advice
Not to mention honey covered lies
But that’s okay, because I was blinded by love
Addicted to the sisterly love
I never realized you were controlling me
Telling me and using me
I thought you were sincere
I thought you’d always be here
I guess everyone else was right
I can forgive all, but just not that lie
You convinced me they were out to get you
They were all trying to hurt you
I have asked you over and over again
About what’s going on with that friend
A friend I wasn’t supposed to talk to
A friend you said was hurting you
That I should stay away from him
That I shouldn’t be friends with him
So I stayed away even though he didn’t seem so bad
But if he’s making you sad
I guess he must be a bad guy
But there went another lie
He came clean on a rainy October day
He told me what you didn’t want him to say
I lost all respect for you
I’ve lost many friends because of you
Because you made me choose sides
Made me believe in your lies
I know I was the one who said
Family are the ones you choose, but I’m taking it back
A true sister won’t lie
She won’t cheat and cry
Just to get her way
Just to get me to stay
For three long years
I have deeply cared
Because that’s what family does
And family I was
But not anymore
Not anymore

 

Little Girl

Lullabies
Sweet goodbyes
Time to let things die
Let it be, let me be

Little girl
Sweetest words
Nothing else matters
Mom and dad, love you too

Why is it so hard to let you go
I’m sorry you’re gone
Under this stone, laying cold
I’m sorry I was wrong

Lullabies
Please don’t die
Your eyes all shut now
So I cry, while you die

Little girl,
Saddest words
You’re all that matters
You and I, we’re a team
Why is it so hard to let you go

I’m sorry you’re gone
All alone now, laying cold
I’m sorry I was wrong
So bye bye little child

Close your eyes
Sleep tight
No more lullabies
Saddest goodbye
My little girl…

 

Six Feet Under

Six feet under ground
Will you finally look up to me now
With your accusing voice
You never gave me any choice

Six feet under the greasy dirt
Ever wonder why there was no cure
To put away your misery
To bring closer our family

Six feet under the grass
Do you still look into your past
Do you ever regret those harsh words
Three simple words could have changed my world

Six feet under the ground
Will you finally look up to me now
Have I made you proud
Will I finally be free now