Old Habits Die Hard (Revisited)

“I’ll be dying soon”
You told me with your tired eyes
“…And you’re gonna be just fine”
You assured me with your trembling voice
And I just don’t know what to do
If I knew, you wouldn’t be here
Chained to this hospital bed
It’s sad that no one comes to see you
Not even me, I admit
At least not anymore
Cause you’ve been sick for so long
It’s becoming a habit now
And we all know old habits die hard
But they die, eventually
We’ve been waiting and waiting
I can only imagine
What you’re going through
But I don’t want to
I guess I’m selfish that way
Thinking as long as it’s not me
But one day
Tables might turn
It might be me chained to this bed
Day in, day out
Year in, year out
It’s going to become a habit
And you know what they say
About old habits dying hard
They die… eventually
Just like you did
Yesterday

 

Home

Old man sitting at the window
Of his old two bedroom home
He’s waiting for his wife
But he forgot she died
Five long years ago
But he just doesn’t know
He just can’t remember much
Now all that remains is his love
An empty bed
And a tumor in his head
He just stares outside every day
Wasting his life away
But maybe someday soon
His beloved June
Will return home again
Holding hands
In heaven they’ll roam
Happily ever after
She’s finally home

 

Hush, Little Baby

Hush, little baby, don’t say a word
You’re still the prettiest in the world
I know it’s too late to buy you a mockingbird

But hush now baby don’t you cry
Mama’s gonna give you wings and let you fly
Right up there, high in the clear blue sky

If you’re afraid to fly so high and fall right back down
I’ll catch you with my loving arms, but you should go now
Before relieve gets replaced by severe doubts

So hush, little baby, don’t say a word
Maybe grandpa will give you that mockingbird
After all he’s been waiting for you, my sweet little girl

 

Sweet Child of Mine

Sweet child of mine
I’ve run out of lullabies
So I guess it’s time to say goodbye

It’s now or never
But never seems like forever
And I can’t seem to choose what’s better

Life and death
Here in this bed
Nothing’s been said

As a mother I chose what’s best
Cause death doesn’t seem so bad
Why can’t he understand that

Cause forever would only last one more month
I don’t understand why he’d let him suffer that way
Our poor little son

 

Thirsty

Dear little boy
Only five years old
He died alone
While his mother should’ve died
Now the world cries
He did something bad
To annoy his bitter mom
His stepfather agreed
He should be an example to the rest
So he got punished
Now he cries and cries
Till there was nothing left to cry
He called his grandmother
But she didn’t even bother
His brother wanted to help
But in that household
It’s every kid for himself
So he shivered
He cried
He was scared
He was cold
He was hungry
But most of all
He was thirsty
For love
For compassion
For the police to come
For a safe home
For his siblings to live in
But most of all
He was simply just thirsty
So he lied down to close his eyes for a minute
To catch a break from his cruel life
Only to close his eyes forever
Now the world finally knows
But it’s too damn late
So let him be that example
Keep your children safe!

 

Forever Love

I held your hand
While you took your last breath
Another life ended, just like that
How can God be so cruel
To let me love you
Then to let go of you
But who am I to say
That our love would be forever and a day

 

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are,
Like a diamond in the sky
Brightening up the lonely night
I wish I could be there with you
But you don’t have a clue, do you

Tears, they fall from my eyes
Somehow it feels different this time
I’m right here, but you’re not
You had to go, but I did not
It just wasn’t my time or place
But you had to be stubborn this way

Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder where you are
Now that the bright lit sun is gone
Now that there is nothing to wish upon
What have you really become
After all that I have done

Now 12 months later we celebrate
Not your departure, but your voyage
And I’m thankful no one knows
Why you really had to go
So soon, so sudden, so mysteriously
Our secret is safe with me

Twinkle twinkle little star
Travel light, travel far
Just let things be
Between you and me

 

Mary Had a Little Lamb

Mary had a little lamb
Or at least
That’s the word on the street
It would’ve been sweet
If it hadn’t been for you
Kids her age would laugh at her
Cause she wasn’t like them
But no one really knew her
No one really cared
No one really had a chance
How could they, cause she disappeared
One day, out of the blue
There was you
Now kids laugh no more
Word on the street
Mary had a little lamb
Buried six feet under the playground sand

 

Old Habits Die Hard

I’m dying
You told me with your tired eyes
I’m fine
You told me with your sweet voice
I don’t know what to do
If I knew, you wouldn’t be here
Laying in this hospital bed
No one comes to see you anymore
Not even me, I admit
Because you’ve been sick for so long
It’s becoming a habit now
And we all know old habits die hard
But they die, eventually
We’re all fed up with it
I can only imagine
What you’re going through
But I don’t want to
I guess I’m selfish that way
Thinking this won’t happen to me
One day
Tables might turn
It might be me in that bed
And you know what they say
About old habits dying hard
They die… eventually

 

Happy end

Have you met my lovely daughter yet
She’s so beautiful and gracious
Walking down the aisle in her white dress
It’s her wedding day

I can tell she is so happy
It’s the happiest day of her life
No matter how old she’ll be
She’ll always be my little girl

We were never that close, though
She left home quite young
And I was just a low life drunk
I never cared for anyone but me

One day she found me hospitalized
Doctors told me I would die
She held my hand and told me she forgave me
I didn’t want to leave her again, but that’s life

Now from up above I watch her get married
To man she loves, but doesn’t love her back
What am I to do but to watch these lies as they roll by
One by one.. while she’s in denial..

I guess I should’ve loved her more
I should’ve been around more
To protect her from this man
To make sure she’ll get her happy end…