Moon's melancholic mumblings

Husband

moondai — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 20:45:43 +0000

You and I
Always together
Forever we thought
But not for long
We were alike
You were a better version of me
A more female version of me
Never knew I could like that in a guy
But deep inside we knew
It was doomed to fail
You wanted too much of me
You depended too much on me
You started to talk about our future
Like we actually had one
I enjoyed it at first
Then things became awkward
Didn’t know what to do
So I left you
And your broken heart
I’m sorry I never played the part
Of a good husband to you
To be honest, I wouldn’t know what to do
I apologize for leading you on like that
If we could go back
I don’t think I would
Cause you were a lesson I had to learn

Old Habits Die Hard

moondai — Sun, 04 Dec 2011 22:39:03 +0000

I’m dying
You told me with your tired eyes
I’m fine
You told me with your sweet voice
I don’t know what to do
If I knew, you wouldn’t be here
Laying in this hospital bed
No one comes to see you anymore
Not even me, I admit
Because you’ve been sick for so long
It’s becoming a habit now
And we all know old habits die hard
But they die, eventually
We’re all fed up with it
I can only imagine
What you’re going through
But I don’t want to
I guess I’m selfish that way
Thinking this won’t happen to me
One day
Tables might turn
It might be me in that bed
And you know what they say
About old habits dying hard
They die… eventually

Happy Ever After part 2

moondai — Sat, 03 Dec 2011 00:26:02 +0000

Please don’t get me wrong
I’m happy that you’re happy
You get to gloat about it
Be my guest
It’s just that
I never got the invite
Had to hear it through the grapevine
What have I done?
Do you really hate me?
Envy me?
Distrust me?
Cause he hit on me
A lifetime ago?
I’ve let it go
And so did he
Trust me
Oh wait
You don’t
Trust him them
But I guess you don’t either
Maybe you’re right
Cause he still calls me at night
To say goodnight
Instead of you
Now, where’s your happy ever after?

One Bad Summer

moondai — Sat, 03 Dec 2011 00:17:01 +0000

I walked pass your place
Just the other day
You were there, as usual
Staring at the world
So angrily
You never noticed me
But I noticed you alright
I tried to help
But you seemed so consumed
With yourself
I tried to talk to you
Get to know you
While no one ever took the time
I was there for you
You were just… there
What could I have been thinking
I guess I needed a challenge
Not realizing I could never change a man
Who can’t be tamed
I had no choice but to walk away
But then you had to go and change your mind
Just like that I was hooked
You got me fooled real good
That’s how one bad summer
Turned into five long years
Years of my youth wasted
But let’s face it
We were never meant to be

I Belong To You

moondai — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 00:54:03 +0000

You put your coat on
Expected me to leave with you
Hand in hand like an army
But how can I disappoint my family
I can’t live without them
I don’t wanna choose
My heart belongs to you
But the rest belongs to them
Not much we can do
So I undecidedly made a choice
And went against my inner voice
I could hardly move
Let alone breathe
Nor look at you
One day perhaps you’ll understand
Why I had to let go your loving hands
Still my heart you get to hold
Just not me

Someone Like Me

moondai — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 23:53:47 +0000

I haven’t seen you in years
Now suddenly you had to come back
And turn my life upside down
Why’d you have to go and do all that?

I’ve settled down, found myself a nice man
I’m married now, I’m sorry
All my dreams came true
They just didn’t include you

We’ve known each other since we were kids
So young and yet so in love
Together we could rule the world
People didn’t understand us

As we grew older, we became wiser
We knew we would never last
We knew things would eventually end
I knew you had to leave and break out of this town

Don’t worry, you’ll find someone like me one day
Someone who will love you unconditionally
I wish nothing but the best for you
Just forget me
Cause sometimes it lasts in love
Sometimes it hurts instead

You walk in the door
I see your face like it was yesterday
Why’d you have to remind me that you and I…
Things never ended did they

So come on in, my dear old friend
I can shake your lovely hands
But I won’t kiss you, not even on your cheeks
I don’t think I can ever go there again

Don’t get me wrong, I have no regrets
But I just don’t want to be reminded either
That you and I could have worked
Had you been listening to me back then
But it’s okay, I moved on
Clearly you haven’t
But I can’t seem to help myself
Why did you have to come back…

Lonesome Girl

moondai — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 23:08:26 +0000

It was a cold October night
It was late and I fell asleep
While you fell in love with me
I was just a lonesome girl
Fighting hard against the cruel world
Who met this lonely boy
Who helped her avoid
All the hardships of her daily life
He tried his best
But I didn’t know, I didn’t care
I just needed a shoulder to cry on
Guess I shouldn’t have done that
Now we both cannot go back
Back to where we were
Back to the good old days
When everything was so simple
When everything was still okay
Now you say you love me
But I know you don’t
You love the idea of me
Damsel in distress
Someone to save
Someone to hold on to
But I don’t need to be saved
At least not by you anyway

Life Goes On

moondai — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 22:56:45 +0000

I saw you the other day dressed up in black
Cause that’s when you look your best
Walking around with headphones on
Listening to your favourite songs
You looked as though you were looking for someone
Looking for me perhaps
But alas
You weren’t looking for me
And you weren’t even you
You turned out to be someone else
I guess life does go on
Except for me

I’m Not Missing You

moondai — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 22:08:03 +0000

I’m not missing you
When I wake up alone in bed
Making breakfast for two
Calling my mum instead of you

I’m not missing you
When I accidentally see a picture
Of when we were actually happy
But you had to go ruin it, didn’t you

I’m not missing you
While I happen to bump into you
At the place we used to go
Seeing you like for the very first time

I’m not missing you
When Valentine’s Day is just around corner
Cause you used to disappoint me anyway
I still don’t know what I ever saw in you

I’m not missing you
When it’s cold outside
Without anyone to hold
Only thoughts of me and you

I’m not missing you
When you decide to knock on my door
Asking me to take you back
Then I close that door, cause I’m not missing you

Happy Ever After

moondai — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 19:28:15 +0000

I think congratulations are in order
I heard you finally got yourself married
Finally got rid of these feelings for me
Honestly, now have you really?
You never invited me
Nor talked to me
Now I’m forever holding my peace
So don’t reach out to me
Don’t try to be friends
Been there, done that, never again
I wish you both all the best
Cause maybe you don’t deserve that
But I know she does
So treat her well, with respect
Love her the way you loved me
Or at least just pretend
Please don’t ever mention me
Just go live happily ever after