Husband

You and I
Always together
Forever we thought
But not for long
We were alike
You were a better version of me
A more female version of me
Never knew I could like that in a guy
But deep inside we knew
It was doomed to fail
You wanted too much of me
You depended too much on me
You started to talk about our future
Like we actually had one
I enjoyed it at first
Then things became awkward
Didn’t know what to do
So I left you
And your broken heart
I’m sorry I never played the part
Of a good husband to you
To be honest, I wouldn’t know what to do
I apologize for leading you on like that
If we could go back
I don’t think I would
Cause you were a lesson I had to learn

 

Old Habits Die Hard

I’m dying
You told me with your tired eyes
I’m fine
You told me with your sweet voice
I don’t know what to do
If I knew, you wouldn’t be here
Laying in this hospital bed
No one comes to see you anymore
Not even me, I admit
Because you’ve been sick for so long
It’s becoming a habit now
And we all know old habits die hard
But they die, eventually
We’re all fed up with it
I can only imagine
What you’re going through
But I don’t want to
I guess I’m selfish that way
Thinking this won’t happen to me
One day
Tables might turn
It might be me in that bed
And you know what they say
About old habits dying hard
They die… eventually

 

Happy Ever After part 2

Please don’t get me wrong
I’m happy that you’re happy
You get to gloat about it
Be my guest
It’s just that
I never got the invite
Had to hear it through the grapevine
What have I done?
Do you really hate me?
Envy me?
Distrust me?
Cause he hit on me
A lifetime ago?
I’ve let it go
And so did he
Trust me
Oh wait
You don’t
Trust him them
But I guess you don’t either
Maybe you’re right
Cause he still calls me at night
To say goodnight
Instead of you
Now, where’s your happy ever after?

 

One Bad Summer

I walked pass your place
Just the other day
You were there, as usual
Staring at the world
So angrily
You never noticed me
But I noticed you alright
I tried to help
But you seemed so consumed
With yourself
I tried to talk to you
Get to know you
While no one ever took the time
I was there for you
You were just… there
What could I have been thinking
I guess I needed a challenge
Not realizing I could never change a man
Who can’t be tamed
I had no choice but to walk away
But then you had to go and change your mind
Just like that I was hooked
You got me fooled real good
That’s how one bad summer
Turned into five long years
Years of my youth wasted
But let’s face it
We were never meant to be

 

I Belong To You

You put your coat on
Expected me to leave with you
Hand in hand like an army
But how can I disappoint my family
I can’t live without them
I don’t wanna choose
My heart belongs to you
But the rest belongs to them
Not much we can do
So I undecidedly made a choice
And went against my inner voice
I could hardly move
Let alone breathe
Nor look at you
One day perhaps you’ll understand
Why I had to let go your loving hands
Still my heart you get to hold
Just not me