Family

I used to have a sister
My dearest darling sister
She knew it all, she gave me advice
Not to mention honey covered lies
But that’s okay, because I was blinded by love
Addicted to the sisterly love
I never realized you were controlling me
Telling me and using me
I thought you were sincere
I thought you’d always be here
I guess everyone else was right
I can forgive all, but just not that lie
You convinced me they were out to get you
They were all trying to hurt you
I have asked you over and over again
About what’s going on with that friend
A friend I wasn’t supposed to talk to
A friend you said was hurting you
That I should stay away from him
That I shouldn’t be friends with him
So I stayed away even though he didn’t seem so bad
But if he’s making you sad
I guess he must be a bad guy
But there went another lie
He came clean on a rainy October day
He told me what you didn’t want him to say
I lost all respect for you
I’ve lost many friends because of you
Because you made me choose sides
Made me believe in your lies
I know I was the one who said
Family are the ones you choose, but I’m taking it back
A true sister won’t lie
She won’t cheat and cry
Just to get her way
Just to get me to stay
For three long years
I have deeply cared
Because that’s what family does
And family I was
But not anymore
Not anymore

 

Will You Still Love Me

Will you still love me
After the lights turned on
After we got properly dressed
And both out of bed

I know I shouldn’t be
All that you need me to be
All that you would like to see
Beneath these sheets

Will you still love me
After I walked the stairs
Out the door
Like your regular whore

I can’t seem to understand
How I can fall for you time and time again
But I held your heartbeat in my hands
Thinking I could change this man

Will you still love me
After all is said and done
After we’ve had our fun
After I’ve said goodnight

I honestly thought
I could have you
That I could be with you
That I could keep seeing you

But would you really still love me tomorrow?
When you meet other people
When temptation kicks in
When you can get someone better
And you realize you’re tired of me

Will you still love me tomorrow?
Deep down
I know
The answer would be no

 

The Break Up

You tell me you don’t know who you are
You tell me you’re so lost without me
Just take a deep breath and listen to your heart
Pass the hurt and all these tears, you will let go of me

I’m sorry, but I’m not picking up the phone
I will only hurt you even more, and I don’t mean to
So with my hidden tears and all my secret emotions, I’ll leave you alone
One day you will thank me for letting you be loved by someone who truly deserves you

I don’t mean to hurt you, because this thing we thought we had ain’t right
It’s just that we both know we’re not meant to be
So I’ll be the bad guy here, and I’ll end this fight
Live your life and just forget about me

You can think ill of me, if that helps you moving on
You can hate me too, if that helps anything at all
Hope you’ll drift away to someone you do belong
Someone who will be there to catch you when you fall

So don’t come around looking for me, demanding to see me
Cause I don’t want you to linger in our past
I don’t want you to fall in love all over again with me
Nothing you can do or say can save what we had